I get the impression if I'd lit candles, you would have set me on fire. [Kirk answers, all deadpan and eyebrows because it's easier to do that than dig much further into it. Does he really want to know why Bones reacted so poorly to the idea? Was it really because of the ex or was it because of Jim? Was he going to like the answer he found if he kept pushing at it? Was he really ever going to let it go if he didn't push? Or would it just bother him in the back of his mind like a cancer, eating away at his sanity.

Did it matter because he didn't want to get married either?

It wasn't because of Bones that he doesn't want to. If anything, this thing, being with Bones is the first time he's even considered it. If he had to marry someone, then he'd pick Bones because he's the one person he can't imagine his life without anymore. Well, Spock was a close second but in a completely different way that has absolutely nothing to do with sex and more like they're just a damn good team. What it really boiled down to was that Kirk didn't think he fit into whatever box marriage fell into it. He didn't think in the way most people think. Call him a supernova or a spoiled little brat or a goddamn enigma, it didn't really matter. People who got married weren't born to the sound of their fathers dying. Or survive a genocide before they were fifteen. Or captain starships at twenty five. Or die at twenty six. Or have a mid life crisis at thirty.

When it came down to it, the thought that he might disappoint Bones-- that was worse than anything else.]

You done having a heart attack or do you need another drink?