[People have been talking about James Kirk since he was born. This wouldn't be anything new. He was the baby born into tragedy. He knows there's holos out of there of him as a neonate, in his mother's arms, of the moment they came home to Earth. He remembers teachers treating him differently when they read his name off for roll call. He can still hear the whispers of people who lived in Riverside, who whispered things like so sad and wasted potential and if his father could see this. That only made him want to hit them harder and destroy everything he touched because what the fuck did they really know about him. He remembers sitting in a lecture hall with hundreds of cadets and learning about the goddamn Kelvin like he wasn't fucking there. Like he didn't already know everything about it because one of the first things he did after arriving inSan Fransisco was read Pike's dissertation. Like he hadn't heard about it his entire life.
He remembers how every pair of eyes in that hall eventually found their way to him over the course of those two hours.
He's not making it easier on himself, he gets that. Jim Kirk is taking the challenge he's been given and proving that he's more than just his father's son. His dad was captain of a starship for twelve minutes and saved eight hundred lives. He's been a captain for three years, and saved literally millions of lives. Going bigger and brighter, it means that people are paying even more attention to him. It means people give a shit who he's with when it's really none of their business who he wants to fuck and who he wants to spend time with.
Kirk is silent, turning possibilities over in his head of how all the pieces could fall. He doesn't have it totally figured out, not yet. It will bother him until he does. He isn't going to sleep very much tonight and he knows that already and not because of anything they might get up to. He's going to obsess over this until he finds a way to manipulate it to exactly what he wants and that's just his nature. It's what makes him good at his job and sometimes a really annoying friend.
Then he puts his drink down and shrugs. They've weathered some nasty storms together. Bones literally snatched him back from death. He can handle a few pissy admirals and the occasional ensign crossing the professional line. By the time he's done, he'll have them all thinking it was their idea that he and Bones be together. Because he's an obnoxious little shit like that.]
Everyone whose opinion I care about probably already knows. Fuck the rest of them. This is our lives and our stuff. What are they gonna do? Demote me now? I'd like to see them try.
now im the slow one
He remembers how every pair of eyes in that hall eventually found their way to him over the course of those two hours.
He's not making it easier on himself, he gets that. Jim Kirk is taking the challenge he's been given and proving that he's more than just his father's son. His dad was captain of a starship for twelve minutes and saved eight hundred lives. He's been a captain for three years, and saved literally millions of lives. Going bigger and brighter, it means that people are paying even more attention to him. It means people give a shit who he's with when it's really none of their business who he wants to fuck and who he wants to spend time with.
Kirk is silent, turning possibilities over in his head of how all the pieces could fall. He doesn't have it totally figured out, not yet. It will bother him until he does. He isn't going to sleep very much tonight and he knows that already and not because of anything they might get up to. He's going to obsess over this until he finds a way to manipulate it to exactly what he wants and that's just his nature. It's what makes him good at his job and sometimes a really annoying friend.
Then he puts his drink down and shrugs. They've weathered some nasty storms together. Bones literally snatched him back from death. He can handle a few pissy admirals and the occasional ensign crossing the professional line. By the time he's done, he'll have them all thinking it was their idea that he and Bones be together. Because he's an obnoxious little shit like that.]
Everyone whose opinion I care about probably already knows. Fuck the rest of them. This is our lives and our stuff. What are they gonna do? Demote me now? I'd like to see them try.
[Space piracy is always a valid option anyway.]