Kirk laughs an ugly sounding laugh, the kind of laugh where he's in on the joke but no one else is. A rather common occurrence around James T. Kirk. He knows something before everyone else does. He's slotted the pieces of the puzzle together faster. He has some new harebrained idea that has a marginal chance of working at best and yet somehow it always does.
It's not really that funny right now. He just doesn't know, can't tell, if Bones really doesn't know or not. If this is some kind of test. Like yeah, kid, you've been sticking it here but do you really want to be doing that or is it just convenience. Like Kirk ever does anything he doesn't want to. Like he isn't sometimes still a rather selfish prick. But then, he doesn't think that Bones is capable of playing mind games like that. He's too honest, straightforward and that's what Jim likes about him. It's not a game. He always knows one hundred percent of what Bones is thinking, even with just a glance.]
Bones. I think if I wanted that I would have done it by now.
[There hasn't been a ton of opportunity, he will admit to that. There's one person on the starship that Kirk has slept with while the captain and they're currently having this messy conversation. There's been shore leaves and pitstops on other starbases like Yorktown and he could have done whatever or whoever he wanted there. But he didn't. He hasn't. He hasn't really wanted to and maybe he's just getting old and lazy or maybe there's really something to be said about sleeping with someone who knows him and whom he trusts. New and shiny might get him off eventually but he knows that if he goes to Bones, he could have an orgasm in less than five minutes and still want more. He knows without being told that it would upset his best friend if he cheated on him, even if they never talked about being exclusive. Somewhere along the way, it became less about the status quo and more that Kirk simply didn't want anyone else.]
It's not just on me, partner, [special emphasis on the word like he's trying it on for size and already finds it ridiculous.
The doctor's glass gets an automatic refill, even if Jim doesn't pour any more for himself just yet. They're already well past all of his usual coping mechanisms. He's not going to pick a fight with Bones. He knows distracting him with his dick won't last forever. He wants to be clear headed and not a sloppy drunk mess.]
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Kirk laughs an ugly sounding laugh, the kind of laugh where he's in on the joke but no one else is. A rather common occurrence around James T. Kirk. He knows something before everyone else does. He's slotted the pieces of the puzzle together faster. He has some new harebrained idea that has a marginal chance of working at best and yet somehow it always does.
It's not really that funny right now. He just doesn't know, can't tell, if Bones really doesn't know or not. If this is some kind of test. Like yeah, kid, you've been sticking it here but do you really want to be doing that or is it just convenience. Like Kirk ever does anything he doesn't want to. Like he isn't sometimes still a rather selfish prick. But then, he doesn't think that Bones is capable of playing mind games like that. He's too honest, straightforward and that's what Jim likes about him. It's not a game. He always knows one hundred percent of what Bones is thinking, even with just a glance.]
Bones. I think if I wanted that I would have done it by now.
[There hasn't been a ton of opportunity, he will admit to that. There's one person on the starship that Kirk has slept with while the captain and they're currently having this messy conversation. There's been shore leaves and pitstops on other starbases like Yorktown and he could have done whatever or whoever he wanted there. But he didn't. He hasn't. He hasn't really wanted to and maybe he's just getting old and lazy or maybe there's really something to be said about sleeping with someone who knows him and whom he trusts. New and shiny might get him off eventually but he knows that if he goes to Bones, he could have an orgasm in less than five minutes and still want more. He knows without being told that it would upset his best friend if he cheated on him, even if they never talked about being exclusive. Somewhere along the way, it became less about the status quo and more that Kirk simply didn't want anyone else.]
It's not just on me, partner, [special emphasis on the word like he's trying it on for size and already finds it ridiculous.
The doctor's glass gets an automatic refill, even if Jim doesn't pour any more for himself just yet. They're already well past all of his usual coping mechanisms. He's not going to pick a fight with Bones. He knows distracting him with his dick won't last forever. He wants to be clear headed and not a sloppy drunk mess.]
What do you want?